Dood. What in the heck happened to this past year? I could have sworn it was just yesterday that I was putting on my pirate costume to go trick or treating with my daughter and friends! I sat down this morning to a cup of java and realized that it was the THIRD OF DECEMBER!

Now, I'm not panicking because oh gods, I don't have Yule presents for people... I'm a smart cookie that way... I shop all year round for Yule, but it was the realization that suddenly I was about to hit 2009 and I really haven't done anything this year except survive it.

Is that what my life has come down to? Just riding the rollercoaster of life and not participating in anything else? I mean, I DID lose a chunk of weight this year, like I had planned, so I don't feel bad about resolutions, but then... it was the only resolution I had made, so it wasn't like I had to worry about thirteen thousand other things to do or acomplish this year.

Maybe I'm just overwhelmed at the fact that in another month, my daughter is going to turn eight years old and I feel like I haven't been there for her enough as a mom... I mean, yeah I raised her for five years before she went to school and since then, I have been working hard to make sure that she is covered in all aspects, supplies and clothing wise... but I feel like I haven't been able to spend enough quality time with her to just... play.

So I think, with this epiphany, I am going to make a resolution to spend more time with my little girl this year. I need to be more than just a financial provider with her... I need to be a mother and just hang out with her.

Yeah. I kinda like that idea.